So, I feel like having a chat. A good old fashioned heart to heart.
Yesterday morning my fiancé left for a business trip and the sudden silence in my empty house made me realize I had spent one too many nights with my eyes glued to my laptop, or on my phone, or behind my DSLR.
Nights that were probably better spent with Rhett before he went away for an entire week.
So here I am. Sitting in a dark-ish room. Feeling guilty over how uneven my time investment has been. I’ve been sinking double (maybe triple) the amount of hours on Olive and Clo where I should have allotted some time for Rhett and Linda.
Which – saying this all out loud – has also made me realize just how ridiculous I am being. I have invested nine years into Rhett and Linda! Surely I am not sitting here, giving myself grief for comitting to something else for a change.
It’s not like Rhett has been anything but supportive. Even going to the added effort of learning how to operate a camera. In fact – and he will deny this if you ask him – he spent the better half of last Sunday taking stills and rearranging props for me. Haha, just thinking about his enthusiasm makes me smile.
And let’s not forget that for the last 7 + weeks, I have consistently created and produced content for Olive and Clo, whilst juggling a 9 to 5 (or more accurately a 7 to 5), maintaining my relationship and friendships (albeit poorly), and pandering at life’s other bits and bobs.
I should be proud of myself. For staying motivated for this long. For being so organised. For having the courage to invest more of my time and energy into a creative outlet that still kind of scares me.
As good as that all is. I still do think a change is in order. My priorities have been out of whack for weeks – completely unbalanced. But I’m not too worried. Rectifying that may be as simple as paring back my blog schedule to 3 times a week. Instead of 7. Easy enough.
And at the end of the day, I need to find a sustainable way to continue working on this blog, that is not detrimental to everything and everyone else in my life.
So, I think I am going to spend the next week tweaking my posting schedule and reassessing my own ridiculous expectations. But I will be sure to keep anybody that is interested updated.
This post turned out to be a bit of a brain spasm. But this is exactly what I love so much about Olive and Clo. It is a safe space where I can come, dump all my baggage and sort out through the stuff.
Until next time.
Stay safe, Linda xo
Disclaimer: For this post, I reused photos from my previous piece: Fashion: Work Clothing Haul – Ft. Reiss, Keepsake the Label and The Fifth, as my lighting situation lately has been crazy crap. #bloggerfirstworldproblems