As of 4 days ago, Olive & Clo reached a small milestone, its 3 month-versary. I honestly cannot believe 12 weeks have passed since I first pressed ‘publish’ on this blog. And sitting here, it has finally dawned on me just how far I have come and how much I have learnt. I can honestly say that since starting this journey, I have never before invested so much time reflecting, or thinking, or striving to just ..understand myself better. To understand what it was that I actually wanted to blog about.
Needless to say, It has been an incredible journey so far. Not only have I consistently been challenged, even going as far to completely forfeit all innate fears of judgement by making myself the subject matter of some very public photo shoots, but I have also found the experience rather humbling. Because now, now I can genuinely say that I understand myself a bit better. Where prior to this, I don’t think I could have told people, without a shred of doubt, what my interests even were. And I especially wouldn’t have been able to delineate between what I liked and what I was, in reality, impartial to.
So with all that in mind, I wanted to quickly share with you all what Olive & Clo has taught me about myself over these last few months. Tid-bits that I have only just discovered recently and have caught myself feeling pretty surprised and at times, enlightened.
Teaching 1: I am not that interested in makeup, or beauty, or baking.
To all the readers that have been blessed enough to have had me in their lives for the entirety of the past 3 months (haha, wink), you guys would know that Olive & Clo started with a focus towards beauty, baking and makeup application. Needless to say, after 30 or so posts of rambling on, and on, and on about said ‘interests’, the sheer thought of updating Olive & Clo started to feel arduous, almost heavy. And I think that was a turning point for me.
In hindsight, I honestly cannot believe I let it get to such a point. Because firstly, I am abysmal at cooking, let alone baking. How I thought publishing recipes on baked goods was a great idea, is utterly beyond me. Because 9 times out of 10, and my partner will be able to attest to this, whatever and whenever I bake, the ‘product’ will either come out over-seasoned (I tend to get excited when it comes to spices) or burnt to an inedible crisp.
And secondly, my makeup application is similar to that of a toddler’s ability to paint within prescribed lines. Less than non-existent. As much as I take pride in appearing semi-decent, I cannot even quantify to you just how much luck is involved in the application process. Ethan Hunt is blessed with better odds in Mission Impossible than I am with a liquid eye-liner. It will be a cold, cold day in hell when I upload a close-up of my eye-lids. Nobody wings it like I wing it. Haha, get it?
Anyway, moving on. So just recently, as most of you would have noticed by now, Olive & Clo has changed considerably in terms of blogging direction. It has been a long while since I have published anything beauty, or baking related, opting to continue down a path that felt much more ..natural to me. Inevitably, with time, the blog organically started to veer down the road of travel, and fashion, and the publishment of personal ramblings. So here we are now. And you know what, thank bloody heavens for that!
Teaching 2: Writing comes easy to me.
This tid-bit will seem obvious to most. But prior to this blog, I had absolutely no idea just how natural it felt for me to articulate myself through words and sentences. It turns out that I can word vomit and brain fart with the best of them and more often than not, have the finished piece of writing turn out quite ..readable. And thank goodness for my partner, the unofficial editor of all my blog posts. Haha. Poor fella.
Teaching 3: I am happiest when I am creative.
If you were to ask me how I feel Monday to Friday, my answer would be .. okay. Because essentially, that is genuinely how I feel during the working week. By no means am I upset. Nor do I wish my circumstances to be any different. But I don’t believe I am happy. Well, I am certainly not as happy as when I am creating/producing new content for this blog. Whether it be brainstorming outfits, or exploring new places, or simply writing what I want to write, I feel like all the above activities elicit a different kind of happiness from me. And it pains me to say that unfortunately, blogging is not my day job.
But it is thanks to this blog and the support from the blogging community that I have realized what has essentially felt missing in my life all this time. A creative outlet. I have needed a place where I can be who I want to be and do what I want to do. And from Friday evening through to Monday morning, when I am creating content, I find myself feeling very inspired, and very passionate, and very happy. And at the moment, that’s good enough for me.
As always, thank you to everybody that has taken the time to read yet another instalment of my personal ramblings. I would love to hear what blogging has taught you guys about yourselves, so feel free to leave a comment down below!
But also. I seem to be having issues with the comment section under all my posts lately. If you guys have been experiencing problems leaving a comment, can I please ask that you send me a screenshot of what you see to: firstname.lastname@example.org, so I am able to forward them to my self-host provider and have the issue rectified. Thanking you all in advance! 🙂
Until next time, stay safe.
Love Linda, xo